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I haven’t stopped my shopping……sigh.

First it started with the I phone. I just had to have it but I resisted temptation. My current phone works fine.

Then I got in my head that I had to have an Ipod. I was going to get a classic Ipod but my dear friend Sascha convinced me to get the touch.

I’ve been broke for months but I coveted the Ipod. I even downloaded Itunes and bought some songs in anticipation of the great moment that I will have this great gift to mankind.

So, I decided that I would use my income tax returns to get the ipod. I immediately got my taxes filed and I thought I would have a bit of a wait for my check.

Today, I was in a bad mood. I tried to go shopping for an outfit for an upcoming party but I was too broke to buy anything. I ended up buying a dress that I have no idea when I will ever wear it but it was cheap and I HAD TO BUY SOMETHING. All the way home on the bus, I was feeling horrible and depressed. I won’t bore you with the petty details but I’ve had a lot of unsettling things stirring in my mind and it made me feel so fucked up. I walked home from the bus and called an old friend up in hopes that he would cheer me up or at least get my mind briefly off of thinking stupid and self loathing thoughts.

As I got the key in the mailbox upon my arrival home, I was talking to him, still feeling shitty and I saw the check. I wanted to hang up immediately but I had to be polite. ALL OF A SUDDEN, I WAS HAPPY.
As my friend was trying to console me, I was thinking of running upstairs to my computer to find out when the Apple Store was open so that I could get the damn Ipod tomorrow.

At the time of this writing, I still haven’t googled the information yet and I spent the past few hours doing more deserving stuff but now, now i will check the Apple store hours and I will rush to the bank tomorrow to deposit my check and I will rush to the Apple store to immediately spend my money before it burns a hole in my account. Oh yeah, I’m dead broke and I owe some bills but of course I’m going to get that damn Ipod. All this time, in this fragile economy, with my employment not exactly a stable situation, I’m going to spend what little money on something that I will forget that I own in months. Well, I have tonight and tomorrow to think about it.

I am a shopping addict or a very spoiled woman or ummm, both.

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